Each day gets harder. Each struggle becomes tougher. The pain I feel inside resonates. My family feels my sorrow, they can tell, one tear is all it takes. I play the role well, no one else can see my heart ache. My closest friends cant tell Im'a fake. It's hard to fool the ones you live with though, I know it hurts him to see what I go through. Feeling useless and helpless, I've forgoten all the happiness. We felt the world would never cease, never had I been so pleased. To question ones own mortality, questions the health of your mentality. I have'nt forgoten the dreams we shared, but now I look at the future and dread. I lack the strength that everyone so revered, I lack the will power, it feels so wierd. I've lost me, in all of this, I've also lost you, into the abyss.